Title: Roughed Up
Fandom: Pacific Rim
Characters: Newt Geiszler, Hermann Gottlieb
Rating: Teen and up
Summary: The two scientists go out for drinks, and things go from bad to worse.
alright here’s my lame contribution to gottbleed week. (also it’s 1 in the morning, so i apologize for any mistakes I missed)
~read @ Ao3~
YAY FOR THE PRECIOUS NERD BBYS!
It probably would have been painful for me to kill off Newt. It’s okay, senpai, don’t apologize for the spam. *pats*
(welp, don’t go reading my other fic from earlier in the week then- it’s worse and it hurt me. I’m terrible.)
First off, this was the first time I’ve ever written any newmann, so I guess I did okay.
I tried to make it a bit silly/cute on purpose, and I went through a couple drafts of this section. This whole aftermath section I wrote to wind down and come to a peaceful end. Originally in my first draft, I had this fic start with a fight (though it is mentioned in the fic a few times), and this end sequence would be the time for resolutions (and confessions ;3), but I scrapped that part eventually and kept the end and reworked it. All in all I wanted silly cute things in the end here, while still trying to keep them as themselves.
They’re both dorks and I love them, and Newt would definitely be the one to ask for cuddles after eventually learning what had happened. He’s gone through a lot and he finally gets his time to properly rest (same with Hermann). I feel like he’s the kind that would want someone to cuddle him to make him feel better about something like this happening, just to feel safe in someone else’s arms, especially while he’s still recovering. Plus cuddles are awesome (as I recently learned. They can definitely make you feel better).
Hermann, on the other hand, is so happy Newt is alive. He’s just laid out all his feelings to Newt, and he couldn’t be happier that Newt returns them. Over time I’m sure he came to respect Newt beyond his rock star attitude, for his brilliance. He’s agreeing at the end, saying it in his own way, because he wants to help Newt with his recovery and wants to keep him safe and comfortable while he does so (though as we know, Newt’s been complaining about being on medical leave. Silly Newt).
I’m glad with how this section turned out, and those last few lines I felt would be good to end with- “Maybe some kisses and cuddles too?” “I think that can be arranged.”
Honestly, this was a bit painful for me to write. I really love both these nerds (and tbh, I see a lot of Elliot and Leo in them), and the thought of ether of them going through awful side effects from their Drift makes me worry for them, along with the feels.
Though, that’s why I added that part- "…a tug on the link in his head, pulling taut and relaxing but still whole". To me, Newt and Hermann’s connection shared through the Drift is sort of an abnormality, and they’re probably more prone to Ghost-Drifting. But anywho- I wanted to poke at that a little, as I do a few times. Throughout writing this I liked to think that some tiny part of Newt knew Hermann was there watching over him, and thus when he nearly fades away but comes back, it’s like that part is reaching out for Hermann and telling him that he’s still alive. Also, in a way I guess it sort of is a prelude to when he shortly wakes after this incident.
After the Drift, they’re more than just lab partners, and it’s obvious they’re closer than before, and I can imagine if something bad was to happen to ether one of them, the other would just fall apart. In this case Hermann was so sure he saved Newt, after seeing what happened to him the first time, that it was just breaking him seeing Newt like this- while he’s asleep without a clue what’s going on- and making him think that it was all for nothing. That’s what fuels the emotion behind Hermann in these sequences, especially here where he just… breaks.
(Also, ether Meditaion 5 or Sleepover 2 was playing on Sleepover.fm at the time, and Hammock helps me fuel the angst, so oddly enough they’re always good to listen to when I need to get emotion out.)
Pick any passage of 500 words or less from any fanfic I’ve written, and stick that selection in my ask/fan mail. I will then give you the equivalent of a DVD commentary on that snippet: what I was thinking when I wrote it, why I wrote it in the first place, what’s going on in the character’s heads, why I chose certain words, what this moment means in the context of the rest of the fic, lots of awful puns, and anything else that you’d expect to find on a DVD commentary track.
Oops, added 2 more fics to work on this week.