1:08am October 2, 2014

~PR fic~

Title: Roughed Up
Fandom: Pacific Rim
Characters: Newt Geiszler, Hermann Gottlieb
Rating: Teen and up

Summary: The two scientists go out for drinks, and things go from bad to worse.

alright here’s my lame contribution to gottbleed week. (also it’s 1 in the morning, so i apologize for any mistakes I missed) 
~read @ Ao3~

12:29am October 2, 2014
pumpkinhearted asked: BECAUSE I STARTED CRYING FIRST FROM SADNESS THEN HAPPY BECAUSE THANK GOD YOU DIDN'T KILL NEWT. And the second ones is because preciOUS NERDS BEING DORKS. So yes. Sorry for spam. *scurries away*


It probably would have been painful for me to kill off Newt. It’s okay, senpai, don’t apologize for the spam. *pats*

(welp, don’t go reading my other fic from earlier in the week then- it’s worse and it hurt me. I’m terrible.)

12:21am October 2, 2014
pumpkinhearted asked: “Newton... When will you realize that you're a brilliant man? I've admired that in you. I... don't think I'd like that kiss to be just once ether...” “Really? Oh dude, if I had known this was how to get your attention-” “Don't. You never learn, do you?” “Nope.” Gottlieb chuckled, smiling and looking into Newt's beautiful eyes. “Come, darling, lets get you to bed. You need your rest.” “Maybe some kisses and cuddles too?” “I think that can be arranged.”

First off, this was the first time I’ve ever written any newmann, so I guess I did okay.

I tried to make it a bit silly/cute on purpose, and I went through a couple drafts of this section. This whole aftermath section I wrote to wind down and come to a peaceful end. Originally in my first draft, I had this fic start with a fight (though it is mentioned in the fic a few times), and this end sequence would be the time for resolutions (and confessions ;3), but I scrapped that part eventually and kept the end and reworked it. All in all I wanted silly cute things in the end here, while still trying to keep them as themselves.

They’re both dorks and I love them, and Newt would definitely be the one to ask for cuddles after eventually learning what had happened. He’s gone through a lot and he finally gets his time to properly rest (same with Hermann). I feel like he’s the kind that would want someone to cuddle him to make him feel better about something like this happening, just to feel safe in someone else’s arms, especially while he’s still recovering. Plus cuddles are awesome (as I recently learned. They can definitely make you feel better).

Hermann, on the other hand, is so happy Newt is alive. He’s just laid out all his feelings to Newt, and he couldn’t be happier that Newt returns them. Over time I’m sure he came to respect Newt beyond his rock star attitude, for his brilliance. He’s agreeing at the end, saying it in his own way, because he wants to help Newt with his recovery and wants to keep him safe and comfortable while he does so (though as we know, Newt’s been complaining about being on medical leave. Silly Newt).

I’m glad with how this section turned out, and those last few lines I felt would be good to end with- “Maybe some kisses and cuddles too?” “I think that can be arranged.”

12:00am October 2, 2014
pumpkinhearted asked: There was no way he could handle loosing Newt. It would destroy him. Then the physicist feels a tug on the link in his head, pulling taut and relaxing but still whole, and heard a steady beeping return. Hesitantly he looks up, listens to the doctors mutter. Newt's back; not awake, but his heart is beating again. He takes another look at Newt's still sleeping face, as if nothing had just happened, and leans his head back in relief. More tears come from his eyes at the thought he almost lost Newt.

Honestly, this was a bit painful for me to write. I really love both these nerds (and tbh, I see a lot of Elliot and Leo in them), and the thought of ether of them going through awful side effects from their Drift makes me worry for them, along with the feels. 

Though, that’s why I added that part- "…a tug on the link in his head, pulling taut and relaxing but still whole". To me, Newt and Hermann’s connection shared through the Drift is sort of an abnormality, and they’re probably more prone to Ghost-Drifting. But anywho- I wanted to poke at that a little, as I do a few times. Throughout writing this I liked to think that some tiny part of Newt knew Hermann was there watching over him, and thus when he nearly fades away but comes back, it’s like that part is reaching out for Hermann and telling him that he’s still alive. Also, in a way I guess it sort of is a prelude to when he shortly wakes after this incident.

After the Drift, they’re more than just lab partners, and it’s obvious they’re closer than before, and I can imagine if something bad was to happen to ether one of them, the other would just fall apart. In this case Hermann was so sure he saved Newt, after seeing what happened to him the first time, that it was just breaking him seeing Newt like this- while he’s asleep without a clue what’s going on- and making him think that it was all for nothing. That’s what fuels the emotion behind Hermann in these sequences, especially here where he just… breaks.

(Also, ether Meditaion 5 or Sleepover 2 was playing on at the time, and Hammock helps me fuel the angst, so oddly enough they’re always good to listen to when I need to get emotion out.)

11:30pm October 1, 2014

pumpkinhearted replied to your post:omg


OMG THANK YOU. You’ll get my commentary shortly~

(ha, I feel accomplished)

10:47pm October 1, 2014

Writing Meme!


Pick any passage of 500 words or less from any fanfic I’ve written, and stick that selection in my ask/fan mail. I will then give you the equivalent of a DVD commentary on that snippet: what I was thinking when I wrote it, why I wrote it in the first place, what’s going on in the character’s heads, why I chose certain words, what this moment means in the context of the rest of the fic, lots of awful puns, and anything else that you’d expect to find on a DVD commentary track.

10:41pm October 1, 2014


happy halloween. its fucking halloween every day from now until the end of october. happy fucking halloween

10:40pm October 1, 2014


People Playing With Clouds And Forced Perspective

10:39pm October 1, 2014


unisex mori sweaters for under $30 (x, x, x, x)

10:23pm October 1, 2014


100 Abandoned Houses, 2010-2014 | by Kevin Bauman
9:38pm October 1, 2014